“How to Drive Off a Cliff” Published
in Sheila-Na-Gig
Sheila-Na-Gig online published “How to Drive Off a Cliff” in their Volume 3.3, Spring 2019 issue.
(more…)writings and performances by Nancy Murphy
Sheila-Na-Gig online published “How to Drive Off a Cliff” in their Volume 3.3, Spring 2019 issue.
(more…)Word Now! Storytelling March 20, 2016 OMENS Part 1 (story #3, starting at 25:15)
An evening of storytelling from the Fremont Centre Theatre, South Pasadena, CA
Altadena Poetry Review published “Summers of College.” (more…)
In summers of college I carried
trays of food or two coffee cups
in one hand or four platters
up my arm. A short polyester tan
colored uniform melted
to my newly bloomed body as I pinballed
around the packed Pennsylvania diner
from table to minestrone soup
to rice pudding, and finally
to the narrow opening of counter
where the club sandwich platters
appeared with young Greek
cooks holding on to one end only
releasing when I made eye
contact, wolves hungry for American
girls. Those days I blushed easily
but no one noticed, the kitchen
was always steaming, the heat
made us all a little uncivilized.
Sitting at the counter Eddie watched
me as I poured his coffee, called me
college girl, tried to tease a smile.
His truck driver compact body, black
curly hair and warm browns
for eyes, a slight chip on a front
tooth. He knew it
was a summer thing, picking me
up in his car the size of Montana
taking me nowhere and everywhere.
The slide into heat and sweetness like
the slowest quicksand. He knew
there is a time and there is a place
for some things and they don’t
go beyond that, as if surrounded
by barbed wire, electrified. He knew
he would not be visiting me
in the fall at the liberal
arts college in upstate NY.
I sensed he was right but argued
anyway, like a child that just has
to ask. But anything
less seemed cruel.
Altadena Poetry Review: Anthology 2018
like a hospital waiting room, airport departure wings are full of
small talk and long silences and what sits underneath. I see
parents sitting on either side of me at the gate
philadelphia, back when you could do that kind of thing
i always protested
they always insisted.
now I follow my honey blonde college girl around
bradley international terminal, clinging to the
seconds before she succumbs to security,
asking questions that don’t matter with urgency
do you have something to read?
she raises her hand slightly to stop me, blinks affirmatively.
we’ve already said as much as could be said
considering. she is the age when I started to
know myself. I remember so well I think
she is me, when she lets me into her worries
I remember too well: we share the same nervous system,
I feel her burdens like they are my own
mostly I am relieved she trusts me again,
I am redeemed after the silent years, the secret
years, the scary years.
north gate now, I let her release me first from
our embrace, our parting words stumble out jaggedly
whatagreatvisitgoodluckyeahitwasmomwitheverythingimsoproudofyouthankyoucallmewhenyouiwilliwillarrive
then I watch as she moves forward into the jaws
of the larger world, she doesn’t turn back
until the last second, knows I wait for this
final crumb–the one who leaves has all the power–
she raises her hand birdlike and smiles without teeth, but her eyes dance
when I play my part as the pursuing suitor waving with all of me,
I watch the hem of her trench coat follow her around the corner.
Altadena Poetry Review: Anthology 2017
The feature article, “Senior in Action: Nancy Murphy” appeared in Not Born Yesterday. (more…)
Today I passed the middle of my life exactly.
It’s my call: we all pick our time of death.
It struck me undeniably like the way some
know the death of a loved one or that
they have cancer. I am Janus
looking forward and backward, sad for
what I leave, yet pulled ahead to what is
possible. Some things just can’t be transferred.
How to mark this midpoint, to linger
and savor or rush through so as not
to get caught up in the fabrics
in the doorway between then and now.
If your only fault is that I may never write
a poem about you, well, that may be
surmountable. You may have other things
I need. I need help crossing this street,
I fear carnage. Do this one thing and I
will stay in your bed all night even when
I want to roam at three a.m., find my keys
and cry in the car, missing the one before
the one who changed me irreversibly
who bound me to him with secrets.
I know it will fade, everything fades
and everything is permanent. Everything.
Eclipse, A Literary Journal, Volume Fourteen, Fall 2003